It has been a while…

On September 30th, one of my friends, Bria, passed away after battling lymphoma for a year. I didn’t realize at how quickly the year had passed. It seems that the older I get the more quickly time goes by. I mean, it had been more than two months since I last posted anything on here.

I don’t really have anything to say at the moment, except that I really miss her. I thought that she was getting better, but I guess that she just didn’t want us to worry.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year to everyone that could potentially read this!

My mother always told me that what you’re doing on New Year’s Eve will have an influence on your activities for the rest of the year.

I think that if this evening will be an indication of what I’ll be doing, then I won’t mind it that much as I’m working and writing this New Year’s Eve. In addition, since I don’t drink alcohol,  I won’t have a hangover when I wake up so I can get a head start on some resolutions.

By only having a few resolutions, it will be easier on me for the next year to realize all of them. I’m a creature of habit. If I have too many changes at once, I think that I would become stressed out which would make it more difficult to change. If a habit can be formed in less than 30 days, then why not make it a healthy one for a change?

In 2018, I will:

  1. Get my license and a car
  2. Get in better shape and maintain it
  3. Write more often

In 2017, I accomplished a few things:

  1. I got a better job.
  2. I moved out on my own.
  3. I met some really cool people.
  4. I have quit smoking habitually. (However, I still vape and I have a cigarette every now and then.)
  5. I have realized that I can be independent, even if it is awkward at first.

Some psychologists say that being “too positive” for the New Year is a bad thing as when you don’t realize your goals, it leads to a negative experience. I have to respectfully disagree. I know that I won’t get all of the goals I’ve set forth all in the first month. You can take the entire year to get the goals done and some of the resolutions can’t be solved in a day or even a month, so it’s always good to be realistic. I know that I won’t be able to get into better shape in just a week!

I’m going to change the way that I live. It’s going to be a brutal first month. Rather than twiddle my thumbs, I’m going to start putting my spare time to better use. I don’t know what the year has in store for us, but I wish nothing but the best for all of us. I’m optimistic that it will be better than the last.

… Don’t discount yourself.

I was recently told by an older and wiser man to not discount the things that I’ve gone through this year… He said that even though it doesn’t seem like they were major changes, they were; I should be proud of what I’ve accomplished.

In January of this year, when I started a program, I told myself and my friends in my group that I was going to get a new job. In May, I ended up in a job that I absolutely love.

I graduate the program in January of 2018, which is almost right around the corner.

I had a breakup this year; I’ve been rejected more times than I’d like to admit. However, I’ve moved out on my own and I’m more independent than I’ve been in the past few years.

I have accomplished almost everything that I had sought to this year. The only thing that I haven’t been able to accomplish is in regard to my weight and fitness.

I’m going to have some spare income which will allow me to get a gym membership and hire a trainer. Because of my graduating the program, my schedule is going to open up and I might as well put the extra time to good use.

I’m going to get my license back in January and by mid February, I should have a car.

A lot has happened in the past year, even if it doesn’t seem like it to other people. The year has flown by and I’m glad to have been able to remain sane during it.

My resolutions are going to be simple for next year…

  1. Get in better shape by working out at least three times a week, using Snap Kitchen for food, and by working with my doctor.
  2. Get my license back and a car
  3. Get my finances in better order
  4. Quit nicotine

I’ve mostly quit smoking already and I’m down to 4-5mg/ml of nicotine inside my vape. I’m going to leave it at that for a while and then start reducing it again until I’m at zero.

I’m hopeful for next year. I’m sure that it’s going to be a lot better than this year. However, even though I had a couple of down points this year, it hasn’t been all that bad. Actually, it’s been a little awesome. 🙂

… What do you write about?

So, earlier today, I was asked what I wrote about… I didn’t really have a good answer because the most writing that I’ve done lately has been on this blog.

I’ve been thinking about a few different stories; I don’t know which one I’m going to run with. However, I’m going to write random posts on here so that a story can potentially develop out of them… I’ll have them tagged with “Random” so that I can easily identify them.

Rather than the answer of “random shit from my life”, I think I should come up with a better answer… Although, that does describe most of my writing, even if it’s poetry, it’s still inspired by my actual life.

I moved, driving, and other things.

I recently moved into a new apartment. It’s nice, but it’s in an area of Austin that I used to live in. While the interior of my apartment is great, I don’t necessarily feel 100% safe while walking around at night. Someone was “assaulted with a deadly weapon” less than 500-800 feet from my apartment and about 45 minutes before I was in the same exact place that it occurred.

I’m sticking it out for as long as I can so that I can attempt to save up some money before moving again. I figure that I’ll be here for the duration of my lease. It’s going to be next month when I’m finally done with a lot of the things that have been weighing me down. I think that as soon as I start driving again, I’ll feel better about things. Also, I can’t wait until I get a new bed. I’m currently sleeping on a futon that’s a twin size bed when it’s folded out.

I think that I’m going to go ahead and get my insurance squared away within the month so that I can go buy a junker by January.

Now on to a more personal issue…

I think that I’m just wired differently than other people. I’ve met a few people in Austin that seem to “get me”, but I only see them occasionally.

I need people to be direct and to the point with me. They may hurt my feelings for a little while if they want to reject my friendship or potentially romantic relationship, but I’m a big boy. I can handle it.

I’d rather be investing my energy toward bettering myself than chasing after anyone. So, with that into consideration, it would be best if I’m interested in you in any romantic sense (and trust me, you’ll know), that you reject me if you don’t foresee yourself returning any of those feelings. I’d rather us be platonic friends than nothing at all. It may take me a while to be able to have a platonic friendship, but trust me, I’ll be there eventually.

Whenever I moved to Austin in 2015, I didn’t know anyone here. My social circle has grown some, but I still feel lonely a lot of the time, unless I’m hanging out with people at the coffee shop. Every now and then, I can be surrounded by friends or acquaintances and still feel completely alone, so it’s difficult for me to form connections with people. However, if you can understand how I speak my mind and can get over the potential awkwardness of my brevity, then I think that we may be friends.

I’ll be a true friend to anyone who needs one.

Edited: I have written a “rules of engagement” for myself which has been published on this domain and occasionally updated. It is listed in the menu above.

… the unthinkable has happened.

I was assigned a MacBook Pro at work because it’s what I have to use… and I like it.

If/when I ever have some cash to throw away, I’ll buy one. It’s stable, runs my Linux VM well, etc.

I’m really liking the job. However, I’m counting down the days until I can go buy a new bicycle. I’m going to buy an electric bike to make it to/from work and any of the other commuting that I have to do. I know that it seems lazy, but Austin has some really big hills that I know I can’t do on my own yet. It’ll help me still get some exercise because the more you pedal, the more range you get.

I think that I’ll end need to save up for one… So, I’m going to invest in some locks and some safety gear as well. If anyone has any recommendations, please feel free to chime in. I’d like one that I can get assembled locally at a shop or I might even just go to an electric bike shop here in Austin and buy one locally.

A new year, so a new start. (A little late)

Over the past decade, I’ve had a website that has been mostly a blog. Since a lot has changed in the past year or two and because of a mishap with a backup, rather than attempting to piece it all back together, I’ve decided to start over on this.

With the exception of a page “How can I change the world”, I’m considering it a completely fresh slate for me to start writing again. I’m going to participate in the word prompts when I can and I’ll probably just write about things that are currently happening in my life or anything that I feel that I should write about.

I’ve changed so much that the past posts that I did doesn’t really reflect who I am today. Yes, I’m an accumulation of all of my past, but I want to focus on my present and the future.

I would like to invite all of you to comment on any of my posts as a lot of people have in the past. I am putting myself out there in the hopes that an individual who reads it can walk away with something, so please feel free to comment, post replies, or use the contact form/s to contact me. I really enjoy it when I hear back from people.