As soon as I stopped worrying…

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I know that it sounds a little far-fetched and like some “hippy shit”, but…

About month or so ago, I made a conscious decision to stop worrying. I noticed that as long as I do the next right thing and I stay positive, good things happen. I don’t consider it “giving up” or saying “fuck it”… I’ve surrendered to the Universe. Ever since then, I’ve been content and a little more happy nearly every day. I’m not euphoric or I may not even appear to be “happy” if I’ve had a long day or if I’m tired, but overall, I feel a lot better now. I find things to be happy and grateful for every day. Gratitude is contagious as are smiles! 🙂

We can only make personal decisions and each of those decisions can influence every other one and potentially touch another person’s life, the same goes in reverse. However, we can’t control what happens to anyone else in the world, nor can we control anyone else, so why try to force the Universe to do our bidding? As long as I keep doing the next right thing and being mindful of my decisions, everything is going to work out in the end, so why worry?

If you don’t have a job that you like and where it makes you die a little inside everyday… Find something else in the interim and quit it. (This hasn’t happened to me, but it’s some advice that I gave a friend recently.) It doesn’t have to be a “perfect job”, just enough that you can live on. I’ve made a few different shifts in my thinking lately so maybe it has something to do with it.

A person told me that worrying is like sitting and rocking in a rocking chair… It gives you something to do, but it doesn’t get you anywhere.

Rather than being stressed about things that are outside of my control, I’m focusing my efforts on things that I can… My health, my partner, my life. I’m a lot happier for it. As long as I have a place to live, I’m not hungry, and I basically have the things that I need to live, then I’m happy.

 

… the unthinkable has happened.

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I was assigned a MacBook Pro at work because it’s what I have to use… and I like it.

If/when I ever have some cash to throw away, I’ll buy one. It’s stable, runs my Linux VM well, etc.

I’m really liking the job. However, I’m counting down the days until I can go buy a new bicycle. I’m going to buy an electric bike to make it to/from work and any of the other commuting that I have to do. I know that it seems lazy, but Austin has some really big hills that I know I can’t do on my own yet. It’ll help me still get some exercise because the more you pedal, the more range you get.

I think that I’ll end need to save up for one… So, I’m going to invest in some locks and some safety gear as well. If anyone has any recommendations, please feel free to chime in. I’d like one that I can get assembled locally at a shop or I might even just go to an electric bike shop here in Austin and buy one locally.

Having a little patience can pay off in the long run.

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For about two months, I was searching for a new job. I have no hard feelings for the company that I was with, but I needed to find something with more hours.

One day, after sending out almost a hundred applications, I finally came to a realization that I would get a job that’s right for me when I needed it. At that moment, I stopped worrying about everything.

I have a family who loves me, a few great friends, and a caring partner. 

I didn’t need to worry about anything anymore.

Worrying doesn’t accomplish anything but give you stress.

As long as I stay sober, do everything that’s asked of me, show up to work and pay for my current bills, then everything will work out.

I’ve got a new job that I start next week and I’m looking forward to it. 

By having patience and not worrying too much about life, I’ve come to the realization that everything will work out ok in the long run. As long as I’m breathing, life is good. 🙂

Daily Prompt: Center

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Today’s post will be a little different as I’m just rambling today. 🙂

Every day, looking for the center of everything… Trying to be in the center of my feelings: not too happy, but not too depressed. I’m always half-way to loneliness. Getting around it by going on random “bus adventures” and then talking to complete strangers… People watching at a cafe or just walking around Austin… Being overly caffeinated just so that I can concentrate while I’m surrounded by distraction.

Finding the center of feelings (not emotions) as I can always appear to be “ok”, even though I’m just indifferent leads me to constant lie to others. However, here at this cafe, I don’t really think that I’m lying… Being surrounded by others helps me be distracted from the loneliness, so why not hang out and see what happens?

 

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